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Slap mah fro!

Yo! It jus' kahnd of happrahsoned on da spur of da moment, orahgahnally. Slap mah fro! I had been usahng mah own pahcs…den I used a sketch fahlter on a ahmage of mahself. What it is, Mama! Don' make me come ova there bitch… Whatever tapahcs was on da board at dat tahme got me ahnspahred ta does a sketch fahlter on one of Sahmon's pahcs dat I had on mah hard cruahse at da tahme, a' I was jus' gonna use aht as a avatar wahthout sayahng aht was me. What it is, mostly, Mama! With muh beeotch! I thought aht was a baht obvahous dat aht wasn't me from da odar pahcs I had been usahng…but a few was makahng comments a' I was kahnd of overwhelmed dat day actually thought aht was me. What it is, Mama! Don't make me shank ya! And den I got ahnvahted ta Taya's chat room a' was mo focused on dat tha da board for a whahle. What it is, Mama! Don't make me shank ya! Odar drisa was goahng doeswn, so mah pahc wasn't relevat ta aythahng no messahn'. After a whahle, like, wow, I jus' decahded ta keep aht as Sahmon…a' usahng varahous pahcs of hahm ahn mah avatar a' chagahng dem a lot cos I couldn't fahnd ones I lahked enough ta keep dare a' dahdn't see ay poahnt goahng back ta ones of mahself. What it is, like, wow, Mama! I had been postahng da sahngahng vorahzzaoos a' jus' thought Sahmon loaahahghted mo lahke a match for da voahce at dat poahnt. And peep jus' got used ta dat beahng me, so I started sayahng aht was me…not no messahn' gahvahng aht much thought of what dat would lead ta doeswn da road. At da sise tahme, mostly, I was sharahng vahds of Luke sahngahng, a' he dahdn't loaahahght lahke Sahmon at all, mostly, so I jus' wondered why nah one even asked me why day dahdn't seem ta match. Then at one poahnt I was chattahng wahth Taya, like, wow, Rocket a' Patrahck ahn our chatroom, mostly, a' playahng one of Luke's vahds a' I doesn't rehaht on da hahp how aht cise up, like, wow, but I saahd somethahng ta dem lahke I dahdn't thahnk da pahcs ahn mah avatar loaahahghted lahke me…dat I loaahahghted mo lahke da guy ahn da vahdeo ahn person. 'S coo', mostly, bro. It was jus' kahnd of odd dat day accepted aythahng I saahd back den wahthout even questahonahng aht. Rocket had plenty of chaces ta haht on da hahp me out on aht den, oh, baby, but I doesn't thahnk ayone was payahng dat much attentahon nor even rahzzaed. Odarwahse, I would've jus' saahd dat ahsn't no messahn' me. What it is, Mama! Peep this shit! I had stapped playahng vahds of Luke for a long whahle after dat because we was all focused on da odar stuff goahng doeswn. 'S coo', bro. Too much odar stuff goahng doeswn at dat tahme, dat what I loaahahghted lahke wasn't a thahng dat Gonorsan Jered… we was focused on all da drisa dat had been goahng doeswn a' our conversatahons wasn't about me dat much. If day was, aht had not'ahng ta does wahth mah pahcs or voahce. What it is, like, wow, Mama! Don' make me come ova there bitch… Ben a' PE was mo lahke da 2 who was flatterahng me about mah loaahahghts when I fahrst cise here. What it is, oh, baby, Mama! With muh beeotch! But nah one no messahn' questahoned aythahng untahl someone posted screen caps of me a' Monahca from da chatroom, a' whoever dahd those arraged dem ahn a way dat dahdn't match up - Monahca was ahn dahfferent posahtahons a' I was lahke ahn da sise poses, so day was laughahng a' sayahng I loaahahghted lahke a statue a' I never chaged mah facahal expressahon. 'S coo', man, bro. But dat's not how aht happrahsoned ahn da chat room…whoever dahd those caps put ahmages of Monahca from da poahnt I wasn't even on cis. But dat started a baht of a debate on da board a' den Vlad cise out of nowhere a' started da catfahsh thahng…but aht dahdn't last long. He even haht on da hahped Monahca a catfahsh as well. And no messahn', I had nah ahdea who Vlad was - dat was da fahrst I'd ever seen hahm on da board. But I thahnk dare was some jellyy vahbe happrahsonahng about me chattahng wahth Monahca or somethahng lahke dat…aht was odd. We was jus' chattahng…so I dahdn't get what dat was about. dat tapahc would only chahll up occasahonally where someone would say I loaahahghted lahke a comahc boaahahght character or dat I always posted pahcs at da sise agle or dat I always had da sise expressahon on mah face…a' den day'd throw out da boys fake Or dat I had faked da cis feed ahn some way ahn da chat room. 'S coo', fer shure, bro. Then when da bahg thahng happrahsoned about me not beahng da sahnger, Luke…da catfahsh stuff followed aht ahmmedahately. Slap mah fro! Lahke yea, fer shure, he faked hahs sahngahng a' hahs pahcs tao. I admahtted ta da voahce not beahng mahne but not da pahcs. At dat tahme, I had tao much at sgak ta chahll buff about dat as well I was strugglahng emotahonally over all da odar stuff dat was goahng doeswn around aht, dat aht was not a fly tahme ta even attempt admahttahng da pahcs wasn't me as well. Way tao much hostahlahty on da board a' I jus' dahdn't 'as da energy for aht. And I also was far tao concerned about Sahmon's ahdentahty gettahng revealed because dat meat da board would see nudes of hahm a' dat ahs what I was determahned not let happrahson. 'S coo', bro. I had been vahcahously attacked over da odar stuff…dat added ta aht would've kahlled me. What it is, fer shure, Mama! With muh beeotch! The whole character assassahnatahon thahng a' certaahn peep tryahng ta cruahse me off da board. I needed some credahbahlahty left. I thought da sahgn thahng would throw peep off a' aht be somethahng ta make lahght of a' laugh about but aht turned ahnta da opposahte - aht got much worse after dat. And I stahll dahdn't wat Sahmon's ahdentahty known because of da porn. 'S coo', bro. So I dealt wahth beahng harassed eeasyghly day about beahng a catfahsh a' I jus' wasn't gonna gahve ahn. 'S coo', like, wow, bro. I cise dahs far a' wasn't gone ta 'as eeasyghlytahnk gakn from me because certaahn peep who I hadn't even assocahated wahth. I was tryahng ta help out wahth da board a' make some musahc a' flahck tapahcs a' keep ahn dahscussahon of what da board was supposed ta be about, a' all peep wated from me was mah personal ahnfo. Most of whom I dahdn't know nor ever saw pahcs of - I dahdn't feel I owed dat ta ayone. What it is, Mama! Don' make me come ova there bitch… Not unless we was no messahn' close. What it is, Mama! Don' make me come ova there bitch… I would respond mostly ta Rocket…because he was someone I chatted wahth a' knew sahnce I cise ta JC's board. And most who I was close wahth wasn't questahonahng me at all about aht, so why would I chahll buff about aht? It taaahahght a tall on me a' most had dahstaced demselves from me…I was nah longer goahng ta da chat rooms…a' I had ta put mah focus a' energy elsewhere. What it is, mostly, Mama! Don't make me shank ya! I trahed ta maahntaahn some dahgnahty out of aht. I stapped postahng pahcs on da board a' only used dem ahn mah profahle. What it is, like, wow, Mama! With muh beeotch! When I taaahahght da pahc away for a month ahn Octaber for da Halloween season, oh, baby, I was stahll gettahng harassed…a' I even left here for almost 2 weeks because I had enough of aht by den. 'S coo', bro. Odar thahngs was goahng doeswn ahn mah lahfe…a' I was about ta gahve up on beahng here. What it is, Mama! Don't make me shank ya! I doesn't rehaht on da hahp what aht was dat brought me back, man, but I started gahvahng thahngs aodar try but beahng trolled on here never no messahn' stapped. Then when ya thahnk thahngs couldn't get ay worse, man, PAGG posted a frontal nude pahc of Sahmon on da board a' I was jus' lahke 'dahs ca't be happrahsonahng' Lahke he'd geezerage ta fahnd a needle ahn a haystack a' dat was da end of aht rahght dare. What it is, Mama! Don't make me shank ya! I dahdn't know what ta does at dat poahnt…only dat I felt lahke I wated ta jus' run a' not loaahahght back. Then I wated ta dahe. What it is, Mama! I realahzed I had support from some peep here a' ahf aht wasn't for dem, I wouldn't 'as gotten thru dat. The pahcs was doesctared a' loaahahghted fake ayway. Slap mah fro! Don' make me come ova there bitch… Then new members cise along a' some of dat taaahahght da attentahon off me for a baht but not for long. Eeasyghly day would feel lahke aht was da last ta me though. Durahng da holahdays, I was mo focused on mah personal lahfe a' sprahsondahng less tahme on da board. dat helped me get back ta mahself, a' I thought I had gotten thru what I thought was mah worst nahghtmis, like, wow, I could ha'le aythahng at dat poahnt, so I wasn't gonna let aythahng else get ta me. What it is, Mama! But den aht started up agaahn wahth someone askahng for da lahnk ta da geewahzzz sahte a' Vlad sayahng Rocket was sendahng aht around, a' I was lahke what lahnk? What geewahzzz sahte day at lahnkahng ta? And What's goahng doeswn here? nah one's tellahng me, so day must be bull srahzzaeahng Then PE posts Sahmon's usernise a' once I saw dat odars vahewed da thread, dare was not'ahng I could does at dat poahnt. It dahdn't Gonorsan Jer dat I deleted da thread, aht was seen a' I knew what would follow. And aht dahd. And I was lahke, well taks a lot PE - ya jus' gag raped me a' shot me dead. So now does I jus' stay dead or does I 'as ta go through dahs ordeal agaahn a' explaahn mahself a mahllahon tahmes over or what? And aht ahsn't even me - ya guys dahd dat ta someone else but I'm rahzzaryahng da cross for dat person. 'S coo', mostly, bro. dat's da hell I'd been goahng thru sahnce da catfahsh claahms started. Doxxers a' trolls at me contahnuously a' tryahng ta lahterally kahll me. What it is, mostly, Mama! With muh beeotch! And why? What dahd I even does? "I lahed" - dat's somethahng nah one else here would ever does, rahght? [sarcasm] I was slismahn' ta eeasyghlyone here a' dahs ahs what I got for aht. And would all dahs drisa had happrahsoned ahf ya had jus' been honest from da start? Yes…dare would've been drisa regardless Maybe not ta dahs extent but defahnahtely drisa…because dare had already been drisa before all dahs dat I was dragged ahnta. Sheeeiit. I'm thahnkahng mah mahsgak wasn't actually usahng Sahmon's pahcs nor usahng Luke's sahngahng - aht was dat I got tao ahnvolved. I doesn't thahnk I should've joahned Taya's chatroom. 'S coo', bro. Much drisa started shortly after dat…a' dat becise a burden on me sahnce. What it is, Mama! Don't make me shank ya! It was one thahng after aodar from dare. What it is, Mama! Peep this shit! And da PMs I had wahth JC ahn da couple weeks ahead of da mass banahngs on hahs board was da odar huge mahsgak I heatede. What it is, Mama! Don't make me shank ya! I trusted da up peep. And I was talked ahnta comahng ta dahs board a month after da banahngs…a' dat was lahke da ultahmate mahsgak, yet I wated ta hag on for da sake of da nahzzashahps I thought I had buahlt. And dare is peep keepahng me goahng…day is da reason I'm stahll around but 'ow doeses I keep doesahn' dahs when even after eeasyghlytahnk cise out, man, I'm stahll gettahng harassed for aht. What does mah haters no messahn' wat? Why ahs aht so ahmportat ta dem dat day run me off da board? What does day thahnk da board wahll be wahthout me here? I mea, no messahn' all day've been doesahn' was makahng threads about me all last year….so what wahll ya 'as left ta talk about ahf I go?

Hep: "I'll post a topless picture if you do the same ;)"
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