Philosophy : Nothing to look forward to in life.

Nothing to look forward to in life.

I feel like I've tried everything I want to try and anything new that I do would just be a variation on something I've done before. Probably some kind of attempt to recreate or top a previous experience, which won't succeed because the same thing won't hit the same way twice. I'm jaded and bitter. I'm lonely but dislike all people. Everyday is basically the same thing and I have no clue on how to break out of it. Or even if I want to. There's nothing I want to do. I'd kind of like to be dead, but I just don't want to be aware that I'm dying. Honestly, I think a terminal cancer diagnosis would be equally as liberating as it is terrifying. Part of the reason why I haven't seen a doctor in 10 years. Maybe I'll just drop dead some day because I never cared to pick up on an illness early. It'd be nice if it was in my sleep. Maybe while I'm having a good dream.

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Have you tried medication?

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Alcohol?

Jokes aside, I don't want a dependency on antidepressants. And I doubt they'd make me change my behaviour or routine. They'd just make me care less. Like sticking a bandaid on a hole that's sinking a boat.

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What about cognitive behavioral therapy possibly with meds?

You're already dependent on alcohol? Why not antidepressants?

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So… when's the wedding?

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If he was a woman and not as pessimistic, maybe lol. I am attracted to fellow self aware mentally ill people, but can't stand when they're too cynical or pessimistic like he is.

Similarly, I can't stand people like you who lack all self awareness of your mental issues, and never try to learn and grow. Just live in denial and judge the shit out of others. You and frrt are super similar in that way.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah stfu. If you really were all that self aware since you claim mental illness, then you'd call mental health professionals for him cuz you relating to him ain't helping. It's only helping you feel better about yourself at this point.

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harsh, donna. fugazi is pretty self aware about himself and his condition and is working on it. what have you done lately except be a bitch?

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Telling me to shut up and it was your unhinged ass who got all up in my grill.

What do you mean call mental health professionals? I don't know that nigga's address. I'm not his therapist.

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Get the fuck away from me, asshole.

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If you were self aware you wouldn’t be talking about yourself and threatened, to doxx, monicae. You are a psycho path

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Huh? What does talking about myself have to do with it?

Whatever drama (especially without the full context) there was between me and her is our business, and it's been resolved.
Also, the threats were empty. We were still fighting after that threat, and notice I never did it.

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I probably don't drink as much as you think I do. But it is a coping mechanism.

Fuck meds.

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Yeah, but why? I'm a little scared from a bad reaction to them, but never understood the reluctance because you see em as a crutch. You have a chemical imbalance. It's like correcting your blood pressure with meds. It's treatment, not a crutch.

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- Side effects
- Addiction/dependency
- becoming numb to my problems instead of fixing them.

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Well, you're supposed to do some kind of talk therapy with them. But do what you want. If I saw I was just stuck in one place mentally, I'd try a different med despite my bad reaction to one.

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I refuse to believe that there is nothing in the world that could bring you joy.

Stop comparing yourself to other people. Only try to control what you can control.

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Who am I comparing myself to?

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Nothing you said is untrue. Novelty fades as you rack up life experience – you become better at making analogous associations, making everything seem similar. I'm not sure why you find this so defeating though. Novelty is not the only pleasure in life.

I'm lonely but dislike all people.


This is what happens when you're alone too much. You become arrogant while also self-loathing, which is a recipe for misery. The introvert must learn to manage this, must figure out how to get the social satisfaction they crave without exhausting or agitating themselves.

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figure out how to get the social satisfaction they crave

I rarely need social satisfaction. But when I do it's very specific and hard to come by.

Novelty is not the only pleasure in life.

I mean sure. I'm fine with getting used to things and novelty waning, as long as it's still fulfilling some kind of need.

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get high, homs. i'm not even kidding

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Oh, great. Another dependency.

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it doesnt have to end in dependency. you know, not everyone who touches drugs ends up a junkie.

altho considering your mental condition, you could be one of those that are prone to addiction, so be careful. get high every other month, on LSD and/or dissociative drugs. that's already gonna change your perspectives big time, trust me.

or start with ecstasy/mdma which has mildly psychedelic effects, and not so much that it's gonna frighten you. it's a great gateway drug to real psychedelics bc on mdma you're gonna learn how to give up control and give it into the hands of the drug/your high and be ok with it.

really, LSD and Ketamine especially are the best and most effective anti depressants you'll ever get on. and in the case of LSD, there's a very slight chance of getting addicted to it. that's pretty much impossible bc LSD requires a lot of recovery time (2-3 weeks) between each session before its back to full effect due to the tolerance, so daily consumption is ruled out. same with mdma btw, which even requires recovery time of 2-3 months between sessions bc it's a very toxic substance interfering in your brain chemistry and your brain just has so much seronine for you. and when your brain is fried and burned out from overdosing on mdma you wont feel any effects anymore. so no point in taking more. hence, the long time for recovery that is needed. but after each trip you will have lasting positive effects from it.

Ketamine is great, too but highly addictive, you can do it pretty much anytime without the need of recovering and is a very toxic substance to boot. it's a wonderful magical drug imo but is also very dangerous if you lose control over it, so be careful with that. out of all these drugs tho, it has helped me the most tho i must say. dissociative drugs in general tend to do this, if you are careful with it.

there are even Ketamine therapies now available under medical supervision, especially for depressed children and teenagers. so, the ad potential is definitely there.

the sound of your racing heart

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yeah take advice from a drug addict who doesn't admit she's an addict but is an addict.

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huh are you new here? i've admitted being addicted to speed before tho

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and other shit. clean up your act.

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make me.

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clean up this 🖕

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I used to watch the PsychedSubstance YouTube channel a lot. I'm familiar with a lot of this. I just don't think drugs are right way to go for me. As much as I just want to say "fuck it" and snort a bunch of cocaine or take some mushrooms, I think I'll give them a miss.

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that's escapism and not facing or dealing with problems. you are an addict.

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and you're boring me to tears, mom.

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you know you're an addict. what a crappy low class live you lead. as if it were something to be proud of.

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pls not now, mom.

the sound of your racing heart

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not cute. get some help.

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lmao idek who you are

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your worse fear and dread nightmare. woooooooo woooooooo wooooooooooooooooo.

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the sound of your racing heart

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i guess the truth is hard to face. lol

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nah i'm good. fears and nightmares are anything but the truth, mom.

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you lied to me. you said you blocked me. i am saddened.

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i was just kidding! i could never block you, mom!

i can ignore you easily without having to use the block function.

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Should I call 911 for you?

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“hi NYPD 911! There’s this guy on this website I go to that’s severely depressed over a Chinese woman he loved. He lives in Australia and needs help! Did I mention the owner of this website hacks my devices and tracks my every movement via alien technology? Anyways, please help the Aussie guy!”

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This makes me feel a bit better.

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I’m a licensed psychiatrist. Only $75 an hour for Filmboarders!

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At that rate I'd prefer a hooker.

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Bitch fuck off.

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Suicide is an option
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